#50 - Smoosh the Boobies!! Done!!

Well, I must say, I've had better fun in other places! But,I'm so pleased to have taken this step. It has only taken me two years to do the damn thing. Life tries its best to get in the way sometimes, or we get in our own way! It is so hard not to have an advewrsarial relationship with yourself. We know the things that are good for us, but we are conditioned to want other things. Or swell up with resentment that we can't or shouldn't have certain things (Hump, who is he to tell ME i can't have ice cream? or I'll smoke when and where I feel!)because so much of who we are revolves around an illusion of freedom, or at least a misconception.

So, with my own health and self as an interest project, I got the boobies smooshed today and hopefully all will be well!

#47 Rebuilding My CD Collection

www.esperanzaspalding.com

This young lady is so dynamic and inspiring!! i love going to Borders and listening to the headphone displays and finding new and beautiful surprises! I have found the best selections that way!! That's how I got hip to Paris By Night, Pacifika, and now Esperanza Spalding!! and it was only 11.99!! This counts toward my Spanish too because some of it is in Spanish and her website is bilingual. Every thing happens for a reason and nothing is coincidental. I watch my path unfold beautifully in front of me...



Yes!! I also bought Carly Simons Greatest Hits.

I swear i would have probably named my daughter Carly had i been as into her all along. Don't know why this latent awakening, but i just love, love, love her songs! The lyrics just move me:

(From That's The Way I Always Heard It Should Be)

My friends from college they're all married now
They have their houses and their lawns
They have their silent noons
Tearful nights, angry dawns
Their children hate them for the things they're not
They hate themselves for what they are
And yet they drink, they laugh
Close the wound, hide the scar

#47 Rebuilding My CD Collection

All I have to say is Pandora. The ability to have such a wide variety of music at my fingertips is helping me to figure out what i like enough to buy. And, has exposed me to the likes of musicians i never would have heard otherwise. From Blackilicious to Carly Simon...now there's a span for ya! And Joni Mitchell! How did i sleep on this goddess?? Its amazing to me, the connection of music to the soul! The most basic of connections. How it touches me. How I can relate to somebody sometime, their emotions put to song. And new folk that I am thankful for...Joss Stone, Amy Winehouse...who would think? My Dead Prez loving self. Its all connected. I am thankful. Right now, I am thankful. I love that my kids croone alond to Erikah Badu and K-OS, Pacifika and Prince. Music is life.

#51 Quitting - 1 day without

Sometimes its so easy, especially if no alcohol is involved. I can go days... I'm not addicted to nicotine...its part of a mental process. Asscociated with "relaxing". I can usually pin-point an increased urge in time of anxiety and/or stress. It such times its necessary to evaluate what is going on around me. Sometimes a positive can still be stressful, like the excitement children feel on the day before their birthday's or Christmas, or a trip to Cedar Pointe. And I know that I have to learn to be patient. The cigarette then becomes a metaphor for the passing of time. And an actual way to feel as if I'm making some time pass to get to __________________ (fill in the blank) sooner.

What are some other "time fillers" that would be more healthy and move me foward in these processes?

I have to remember how sincerely I want cigarettes to no longer be a part of my life.

I have to think about how good I feel physically and emotionally when I don't smoke.

I can meditate on my health, think about my lungs and my body as a beautifully balanced system.

I have to think about my children, the example I set and how to live to see them grow up.

I have to think about my spirituality and how, for me, the road is partially blocked to accessing higher awarenesses and sacred instruction when I actively participate in destruction of the temple.

# 85 buying local

So, this will be an ongoing thing...or will there be a "done" date?

Coffee:
Higher Grounds Trading Company
located in Traverse City, Michigan
www.highergroundstrading.com

These use some of the profits to fund global projects such as "The Oromia Photo Project" or the "Water For All" project.

Available at the Natural Food Patch in Ferndale.

Fair Trade
Organic

and the artwork on the package is the work of Beatriz Aurora, from Chiapas Mexico who tells the story of indigenous struggle through her artwork.

Life is perfect, but i'm not

So, my list is misnumbered and #78 is too vague. AND, since i plan to chronicle my attempt at this, i can't just be deleting and reordering things on the list or they won't correspond to the postings. RULES!!! Who makes these things anyway?

I also felt like it was very telling that the first things on my list have to do with "work". I mean, I am passionate aboout technology but it should not come before Self Improvement and Fun and Fam right?

Ah well, such is life. Time for coffee.

#8 Start A Blog

I still need to spend some time developing a relationship with The Blog now. I mean, I feel like we are off to a good start but, a good relationship takes time and work so, we've only just begun. I feel confident that over the next weeks, months, years, our experience together will deepen. With all of the ups and downs that go with. Looking forward!

101 in 1001 List (It Starts Today!!)

So, as you can see, I have this long ass list of things that I will accomplish by September 1, 2011. I wanted to put a countdown counter on this here page but have yet to figure it out. I am happy to say that, as a result of this list and its requirements for posting to the Day Zero site, I am able to check off an item on my list already!!